life thoughts .

Hey. It’s me again. I’m currently on my lunch at my boring retail job. Let me tell you, i don’t know how we as a society are supposed to leave the house to work our life away in order to get money. Where’s the fun?? especially in retail. For those who don’t work retail, allow me to explain my experience. I will not say where i work out of obvious personal reasons, but it is not for everyone, including me. I need to pay the bills somehow! 

Mostly everyone in this world is an introvert. Others are extroverts (which honestly idk how y’all do it). If i get too much social interaction in one day my social battery is shot. Retail you deal with people everyday. Now I don’t work in the back, I work behind the counter slicing meat and making bread (literally). These customers are so rude and impatient it’s actually sad. Why are people so inconsiderate of workers nowadays? Not just workers, but the general public as a whole. What happened to being kind and respectful? An actual decent human being? The amount of public freakout compilations out there just goes to show you how society is crumbling nowadays (and I eat those up!) I could go on and on about how parents these days are letting a tablet babysit their alpha gen children instead of teaching them manners, but I will save that for another day. 

Now don’t get me wrong, while I am an introvert most of the time, I actually don’t mind helping customers who are nice to me. I always stand by the phrase, “treat people the way you want to be treated”. Simple to understand no? Not to these customers. They don’t care how nice you are to them, they will try to take advantage of your energy and time. All over a piece of ham.. like be fr. I like the feeling of making a customer happy when I find them something in the back or give them their food. It lets me know hey, i’m doing my job. I’m being of service. 

When it gets too much, I start to despise it. My emotions flare up and I can’t cry in public, so i hold it all in until I get home. It’s a draining feeling. I’m glad I can release those emotions rather than hold them in. At times I do catch myself holding in those emotions, but I’ve gotten way better at identifying them and releasing them. This goes to everyone reading this too. RELEASE THOSE GODDAMN EMOTIONS!! CRY IF YOU NEED TO!! if you never release them, the more pain you’ll carry. 

That’s all for today. I’m close to starting my 2nd spring semester of college. Lots of nerves but also exciting too. New campus i’m going to! Anyway, hope y’all have a great rest of your week.