how i got out of my comfort zone (and why you should too)

    Hello! long time no see eh? I'm in the mood to talk about some things. Just last week I got experience my first ever festival with some friends of mine. This is going to shock you, but I actually never experienced an actual real life concert a day in my life until now. Yes at mine grown age (24 lol). Like technically i saw dan and phil first when i was 14 but lets be real that's not no music concert. Was it pure cinema? absolutely. Anyway, this was the first time in my life I actually got experience live music and see a few of my favorite artists in person. It was absolutely amazing and exhausting at the same time. Now I've never once joined any fandoms in regards to bands and all that, just a casual listener. This experience though introduced me to what fandom culture within the band space was really all about. 

    I had these two girls I met at the festival waiting in line, who were sweet btw don't get me wrong, but at first I felt like I didn't really belong. They were so determined to get to barricade, all to experience the pure adrenaline of seeing their favorite artist smack dab in front of them. I felt like I wasn't as big as a panic at the disco fan as the other people there. Was this really for me? Am i being too skeptical? Oh anita shut up, enjoy yourself you big critic. So I did. We got to the stage where all the bands leading up to panic would perform. Once we got there I knew we had to lock in. We knew it was going to be a long 12 hours until the final band. Something that helped the wait was having met a new group of people who were waiting there just like us. From the first thought of feeling out of place to now feeling excited and understanding why people attend these events, It made everything so worth it. This is why it's so important to do things you are afraid of or unsure of. Taking risks isn't always a bad thing. Once you take these chances, you will become more prepared for future events and learn more about yourself.

    Another instance is when I flew on a plane by myself to go meet and see dan and phil at their show Terrible Influence. This was my FIRST time flying BY MYSELF. A crazy idea to some, but absolutely doable. Why did I do this you ask? Purely to prove something to myself and to meet dan and phil ofc. I wanted to experience true independence. I actively felt in my gut I was ready to go solo. Was it the best way to experience a show? Surprisingly, no. It did feel lonely being in my hotel all alone. I wasn't totally alone at the show, as I had friends to experience it with, but still rather lonely knowing It was my responsibility to check out of my own room and get back to the airport to fly back home. I wouldn't lie that I did feel a bit homesick. 

    Despite the fears and worries, I also felt a strong feeling of empowerment. I know now I can do these things. In fact, I can do anything. Writing this is simply a reminder for myself to follow those words. If you've been at a point in your life where you've been contemplating on something thats out of your comfort zone, it's okay to do it.